| | Current Music: | jack johnson | | Security: | | | Subject: | bumpy path.... | | Time: | 03:00 pm | | Current Mood: |  shitty |
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| | Recently, things in my life haven't been the way they normally are. candice is my absoult best friend in the whole world, but problems can't stop coming between us. She is mad at me everyday for something new or different. I don't know what I am susposed to do to prevent this. Not only does the weather suck, but my best friend in continuosly mad at me. I don't know how much of this I can take... it's a burden on my back with the rest of my problems. School is almost over, and I am thankful for that, I can hardly wait for this year to be over and for me to graduate! UC NEXT YEAR hell yeah! There isn't much else to say beside CANDICE I LOVE U, anyone in this world could be mad at me and I could tolerate it,but when it's her I cant | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | ludacris | | Security: | | | Subject: | college bound!!!!! | | Time: | 02:05 pm | | Current Mood: |  excited |
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| | September 21st can not come soon enough, for those who are wondering what sept. 21st is.,. my first official day of college!! i could be more excited!! I'M ESCAPING FROM THIS GHETTO TOWN!! i don't know which i am more excited for to graduate or to go away to college! -anyways- my spring break has been amazing and of course i've spent it with candice, there isn't anyone else in this world i would rather spend it with!! of course i've spent time with my precious brandon, but that's a given who could go without seeing his sexyy ass for a couple of days i know i couldn't! Candice and I are going to Metropolis tonight like we do almost every thursday! I love dancing.. I'm just in such a great mood cause i just got done talking to brookey! i cant wait to see her again.. well im going running cause IM FAT and need to go on a diet!!! c-ya HELL YEAH I'M COLLEGE BOUND!!!! CAN I GET A HELL YEAH!!!????? | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | usher-lovers and friends | | Security: | | | Subject: | fortune of the day... | | Time: | 08:34 am | | Current Mood: | content |
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| | Wise man say: "successful person; one who recognized chance, and took it." as life is getting tougher from the pressure of college, the pressure of the last two months of high school, and the pressure from the people who surround me. I finally sent in my confirmation letter to the University of Cincinnati, and applied for brand new apartments. I am looking forward to college next year, but I am also nervous at the same time. I don't want to be one of those smart kids in high school who go to college to flunk out the first semester. I want to be successful and finish with a big-fat degree. High school is not only getting more difficult because of my lack of interest but aggravating at the same time. The students are getting bitchier everyday and I am becoming less tolerant. I don't know how much more of it I can take before I punch someone in the face. I am not speaking of someone particular but the school as a whole (especially the seniors) Of course there are the chosen few who I enjoy being around but there aren't any more than 10. Summer vacation isn't to much farther away and I can't wait.. believe me! On the other hand, I have been hanging out with Candice a lot of course, she's great.. 'FOCK U' HA HA(dunk book). The senior trip to New York was on the 16-21, and I had a blast. I love NY, I now know why they make those t-shirts because it's pretty much guaranteed that you'll love NY if you visit. It's pretty much an obligation to purchase one of those t-shirts. While in NY we were on GOOD MORNING AMERICA inside the studio and my face was on television!! Which of course it's meant to be, just kidding but anyways- I did A LOT I MEAN A LOT of shopping, I bought all of NY lol and we also went on a lot of neat tours. I didn't really get along with a lot of the people there so I just avoided everyone like I usually do. I hung out with some but I avoided the groups because there is drama waiting to happen. On the other hand, Brandon and I are doing good, the more time we spend with our friends the less we fight and we fight A LOT! when you're in love you seem to make it through anything. Spring Break just started and so far I am having the time of my life, clubbing, and hanging out with people I am glad I didn't go to Mexico because I would have missed all the excitement happening here. Only two more months left, then I'm off to college! I recognized the chance and i took it. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Today is Valentines Day and so far mine hasn't been off to that great of a start. I'm ill for one and for two I haven't gotten to see my very very sexxy boyfriend whom I adore. I haven't been to school since last wednesday which isn't good because I am going to fall behind. I hate MHS, I hate the students, the teachers and the different set of rules for each individual. I am ready to go to college and get a jump start at my future which doesn't involve very many people from this jungle town. I have finally began the process of narrowing down my final choices and turning it into one. eekk!! this is difficult. Last Saturday Brandon and I went to a dirt bike freestyle show and it was so awesome, these bikers did back flips and a lot of neat tricks.. I am not really in the mood to write but I hope tonight turns out well cause its Valentines Day and I'm spending it with they love of my life... I love you brandon | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | jack johnson | | Security: | | | Subject: | swimming | | Time: | 02:49 pm | | Current Mood: | smiling |
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| The weather outside sucks, it sucks in my house and just about every where else I can possibly go. School is absoutely lame but I find myself happier now that I avoid everyone there but the chosen few I just happen to exchange hellos with in the hallway. People tell me that I don't like anyone and honestly it's true, people these days are just so scandalous and deceitful and it's hard to trust anyone let alone get along with them. I find myself much more happy now that I have found a way to avoid the middle school drama. Brandon and Candice are all I need! My birthday was last Saturday and it was fun but I enjoy the fact that I am legal now. I had a swim meet that I did horrible at except for my 100-free in the relay which wasn't even an individual event. My week was alright and things between Brandon and I are amazing. I am very grateful for him company. He has been having problems with his work and such but I still make the effort to see him even though our schedules clash. Sara Turneraneo if you read this we hung out for awhile and it was fun, now you don't talk to me anymore it makes me sad. I thinks it's cause we are both in relationships, have our best friend on the side, and we attend different schools.
OH YEAH! some lame rumor Betsy started last week about Charles and I "messing around" susposibly when Charles, Jorge, and I were at the mall shopping for Jorge! I hate rumors and high school and bitches like her, I am glad we aren't friends anymore even though rumors still get started about me. I hate drama, and she is the #1 drama queen! I LOVE BRANDON! people start rumors just because they are jealous of what I have with Brandon, or just what I have period. Maybe it's my strong sense of justice people want, but sadly,can't have. Even though I avoud everyone I still haven't escaped from the jungle yet. I will in June and I can't wait any longer than that! Once I escape I wont have to ever go back or deal with discombobulation anymore and that makes me smile really big. | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | hot and spicy | | Time: | 09:24 pm | | Current Mood: |  hot and spicy |
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| | so anyways... the weather sucks and it's to cold for me. I hate this kind of weather it seems to interfere with everything except school. Even though it sucks when you have to go and it should be a snow day! It's also a good thing when you're almost positive it's going to be a snow day so you can stay out late and whatnot. I want Brandon to come over and spend the night. I love it when he comes over and puts his cold hands on my bare butt cheeks when I am warm in my sweat pants, when I fall asleep in his arms as he kisses my forehead. Gosh I love my boyfriend! though it's been hard the past couple of days because our schedules clash, and we hardly ever get to spend time together. I love him a lot, and I wish I could see him more. On the other hand, my bestest friend in the whole world just got over a throat illness. I haven't seen her in almost a week and half(which is like a year) and it's been a looong week and a half. I miss my dicey pooh but we will be together tomorrow and I can't wait. My birthday is in 9 days and I am so excited! I think I am moving out but I am not for sure. I need a roommate but I don't know if i will be able to find one. The new semester started at school and I have Goverment(which is a good class) P.E. and Wood shop. My goverment class is pretty fun. I have a lot of people in there I know and my teacher seems to be alright so far, though he has a dorky sense of humor when nothing is really funny. My P.E. class is a bunch of skanks and freshmen I should have taken it over the summer but I am not about to waste my money on summer school! Wood shop is pretty cool, I am about the only girl is there so I kind of sit alone. There is this strange freshmen guy name Jeff with a lisssp that sits at the table with me and always asks me about punk and metal bands. He is just trying to make conversation with me because he thinks I'm hot. gross. haha. We have a swim meet coming up this Saturday which I am actually looking forward to. It's a dual meet aganist Xenia or something like that. Brandon should be here any minute and I am sick of typing so I am pretty damn hot and spicy lol cya | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Maybe I'm misunderstood but I feel this directed toward me:
betsykay16 (betsykay16) wrote,
@ 2005-01-09 21:32:00
Current mood: depressed
shitty...
sucked..and the rest of time i wasnt at work, sleeping, or with my friends I was working on my gay design project.. its so jank lol I'm so sick of middletown... I wish I could jus move somewhere and start over... ugh that sounds bad doesnt it but its true..I GUESS I KNOW WHO MY TRUE FRIENDS ARE NOW.. CUZ IT SEEMS LIKE SOME OF THEM DONT FEEL THE NEED TO CALL ME... AND I'M GIVING UP ON CARING.. IT SUCKS HOW PPL CHANGE.. AND I HAVE TIRED TO MAKE THINGS WORK BECAUSE OUR FRIENDSHIP WAS SO IMPORTANT TO ME .. BUT ITS LIKE THEY ARENT THE SAME PERSON NOW... everything is pisses me off.. and if I have to deal with ne more bullshit or disappointments I dont know wat im going to do.. cant something GOOD happend in my life.. cuz Im trying so hard to be happy..
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is change always for the worst?
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2005-01-13 09:10 (link)
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I completely understand where your coming from when you say you've found your true friends and that people change. Are you directing that toward me? or am I delusional? When I read that entry it seemed like it had my name written all over it. Maybe it's the looks in the hallway I'm receiving that gave me the hint, or the "walk-by" without a "hello"...People change but is it always for the worst? Are they changing? ..or... does it seem that ways because you've changed as well? Is it 100% the other person... probably not. I can't speak for you but I can speak for myself, and you have changed also.. Does a telephone only work one way? Maybe I'm misunderstanding something because I thought it worked two ways; crazy. I'm glad I've changed, I'm a stronger person and happier now than I was before. Yeah, I miss you Betsy but if that is directed toward me, neither of us has tried to make it work. I think it's the lack of interest in each other, or that you can't pull your head out of ASH'S ass long enough to try, but I guess you're not the only one who is going to stop caring.. cause I am also...is change always for the worst? maybe this is how things were meant to be...
---- erin delano | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | modest mouse | | Security: | | | Subject: | hightlights. | | Time: | 06:28 pm | | Current Mood: | content |
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| | I'm sitting here in my freezing cold basement with foils in my hair pj's and a big black cape, if you don't know what that means I am getting my hair highlighted. The past couple of days have been pretty busy. Semester exams are coming up tomorrow and all last week we prepared for them(which was a total pain in the ass). I had a swim meet in Milford yesterday and the Middie girls team came in 5th out of 12, that was our first defeat. I think the guys came in 9th or 8th but I am not to sure. I haven't hung out with any girls besides Candice in awhile, I don't know if it's their need to gossip or their bizarre behavior that bothers me but something about other females really irks my nerves. It's like they can't keep a friend because they are to worried about talking about them all the time. If they aren't talking about someone else then they aren't happy it's like they do it to make themselves feel better about who they are. I don't need to talk about someone to feel better about myself. I'm humble enough. -anyways- Candice is about the best friend a girl can have so is so honest and upfront with me about everything. I really admire that in her, she is such a loyal friend and I am so glad to have her. I don't need any of those "so" called friend I have my dicey pooh! Same with Brandon, even though he isn't very upfront and never tells me what is on his mind he is still honest if I ask him something, and I trust him more than anyone in this world. He treats me so well and we have been getting along really well the past few weeks it feels so awesome. I love my baby so much. Last night after my swim meet I went to Cincinnati to meet up with Brandon and some of his friends at the "CAVALCADE CUSTOMS" car show that the convention center holds every year. He didn't give my direction so I got lost for a minute but I have wonderful sense of direction so I found my way there. The show was awesome, and I had a blast. Well before my hair falls out I have to go rinse it. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | y control- yeah yeah yeahs ` | | Security: | | | Subject: | get out of my way | | Time: | 09:57 pm | | Current Mood: | lethargic |
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| | First of all, today was hell in reality. I had to wake up at the ass crack of dawn to deal with people I can't stand. The pushing, the shoving, the rudness is hardly tolerable, it's like a released zoo with a bunch of wild animals wandering around aimlessly. School is overrated, I know I shouldn't be saying that but that's just how I feel this year. I used to be so into school and have a perfect 4.1 and high standards but that crashed into the ground and now I'm at a below average level which is not on my mentality level. Not to be vain but I'm brillant there's not much to it. I just don't know how much more I can take of this disconbobulation! On the other hand, Swim practice was rough tonight. I neglected practice during Christmas break and now I'm paying for it. Coaches Classics is coming soon and I hope I can get prepared in time. Brandon came over today and we wrestled around(of course I beat him up) and laughed about a number of things. I love my baby!! -anyways- I don't have much else to say besides I'm sleep deprived so we all know what that means... goodnight and get out of my way | | comments: Leave a comment |
| HAPPY FAULKIN NEUU YERRS DFFF! < good memories from year b4. I miss KYY, DFF, DAN, SCOTTIR, JAYME, and all my old gang. I haven't seen them in the longest time, but hey oh well no one bothers to get ahold of me so I am gonna listen to what EDDO would say "FUCK IT!" lets see... For starters, I'm gonna try to have a better year than 2004. My new year resoultion is to never eat chocolate again, DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYONE, and of course the typical female lifestyle try lose weight. -anyways- I've come to realize who my true friends are.. Candice, and that's all I can think of. I have my wonderful loving boyfriend who I care a TON about!! Of course I have guy friends; Charlie and some others but no one really matters to me. I am never gonna see these people again after I graduate, and quite frankly I don't give a shit. They don't care about anyone but themselves and honestly suck as friends. The only girl friend I honestly care about is Candice. I've been hanging out with her a lot lately, and we have so much in common. I love her to death. A true friend isn't someone who is going to ditch you because you don't attend CHURCH! or pray to jebes every night, and doesn't leave their friends behind and change an entire personality to fit it. Someone who talks about being yourself but doesn't even know who they are. You stupid hypcrite! come one change the way you dress everytime you change friends. JROD you need to quit bitchin about us, and worry about yourself, that twisted poetry in your live journal is pathetic. I don't see how you can just forget people. Have a nice life when you find out there is no heaven and your stuck in hell or what I call earth for the rest of your life. -anyways- I am sick and fucking tired of people around here. They are liars, cheaters, and don't give 2 shits about anyone else but themselves. SO FUCK IT! lets have a good year erin..
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